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Faith & Anxiety

"I’m told that anxiety isn’t part of how we were designed to live, but I still have it and God’s not healing it."

Faith & Mental Health
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Recognising your Learning Style

Each of us has been created with a mind that understands the world in a slightly different way to the person next to us. Knowing what our own learning style is can transform our understanding of how God wants to communicate with us.

What About You - Self-Perception

On Mercy’s Freedom Journey, we invite participants to use a tool called What About You?

The What About You? Tool is a way for individuals to consider what they think about themselves and who they believe themselves to be. It starts with a collection of adjectives that individuals are asked to circle if the word rings true for them, ranging from how they look, to things they like or don’t like about themselves.

It’s a powerful tool because it’s not often that we take stock of what we really believe about ourselves. We may find it a lot easier to describe how we want to be seen or how we feel others may view us…

But to honestly reflect on our own thoughts and feelings, however uncomfortable, can be the start of something powerful. 

Because once we piece together our self-perception, we can start to understand where those perceptions and beliefs came from. Life experiences, social and cultural contexts, family and peers all contribute to shaping our self-perception. Sometimes this is positive, but sometimes this is negative and can impact how we live our lives. 

The tool continues by asking individuals to reflect on how they perceive God. Not who they know him to be, or should believe he is, but their own authentic experience, perceptions and feelings about him. 

It is often said that ‘I know God is, therefore I believe he is…whether I feel it or not’. Whilst there is validity to this statement - of course our feelings are changeable and God is truth - it can sometimes lead us to deny the reality of what we actually experience. We bury our God in a mountain of head knowledge, trying not to notice the disparity, or dissonance, between our heart and our head. 

But to safely explore this dissonance - for example, ‘I know God is good, but with me he seems cruel and harsh’ or ‘I know God is trustworthy but he let me down when I needed him the most’ is a huge step in building an honest, authentic relationship with God where we acknowledge these feelings out loud.

For some, this can feel like one step too far - a vulnerability that risks losing God altogether. And yet, the reality couldn’t be further from the truth (Psalm 18) as we enter dialogue with God. 

One thing that quickly becomes apparent as we work our way through the tool, is that there are often links between perception of self, others and God. For example, our experience growing up was that we were lonely or had few friends. Our perception of Jesus is ‘distant’. The connection can sometimes be clear- that we can have perceptions of God that are based on our human experiences. 

For example, when we recognise the feelings connected to an absent father, we may notice that we transfer this to the sense of an absent God. An emotionally absent mother? This may translate for some as a sense of a God who is present but who’s presence doesn’t soothe us.  

There is no formula to this, but it is worth noticing and bringing into an open space in order to deal with hurts that have impacted our sense of self and perceptions of other people and God.

Our experience at Mercy has been that time and time again, when individuals allow themselves to be honest about who they really believe God to be, he has revealed his gentle truth. Through encounter, perceptions about God and self and others have been transformed.

You can access the tool here:

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Faith & When Forgiveness Feels Unfair.

Helping you navigate the tension between faith & mental health by looking at a tension point, a talking point and a truth to ponder.

Tension Point
"I get that we should forgive, but it just feels unfair. What happened was wrong and they just don’t deserve my forgiveness. Besides, am I just supposed to forget it all ever happened?”

Talking Point 

Let's be honest, forgiveness is hard. It is so fraught with complexities and requires us to face our hurt and pain head on. And this is precisely why choosing to forgive can feel so unfair. The hurt and pain is our proof that what happened felt wrong. 
 
Often the thought in the back of our mind is ‘Forgive? Why should I?’ Yet we also seem to recognise, deep down, that it's the right thing to do. After all forgiveness is mentioned 40 times in the New Testament alone. And it really is good for you: studies have shown that practicing forgiveness decreases anger, anxiety, and depression and increases self-esteem and hopefulness for the future.
 
The tension points in forgiveness are often related to myths – misconceptions in our beliefs or understanding of forgiveness. Although acknowledging these and reading the biblical truths won’t necessarily make the path a smooth one, it can help us journey towards choosing to forgive.

MYTH: To forgive means to forget

The premise of this myth is that forgiveness means that we simply pretend or deny that something ever happened, but this is not the case. To forgive means to go through a process of fully acknowledging the impact of what happened. Part of this process is inviting Father God/Jesus/Holy Spirit to share His perspective and how He desires to heal you and exchange the current thoughts and feelings with His own Truths and promises – these are the things that can be remembered instead.

MYTH: I can only forgive if the offender deserves forgiveness or apologises.

This myth assumes that forgiveness is something that needs to be earned. This is not true. It may validate our pain to hear someone say sorry or work hard to earn back trust, but this should never be a condition for your forgiveness – this positions ourselves as the judge. Releasing forgiveness, whether the offender deserves it or not, positions God as the judge over the offender and the healer of our hurt.

MYTH: I will be ready to forgive when I feel the hurt has passed.

The premise of this myth assumes that forgiveness itself is a feeling. After all, it’s not uncommon to hear the phrase ‘to be in a forgiving mood'. But forgiveness is not a feeling, it is an action. Because of this we can release forgiveness, despite how we feel, as an act of our own will in a determined effort to pursue our own healing. It won’t always feel fair and it won’t feel easy – but it is right and it is good.

Truth to Ponder 

Choosing to forgive is one of the most powerful keys to unlocking healing because it not only unlocks us from any beliefs that formed as a result of our hurt, but it is also a key to deepening our relationship with God from whom we can receive lasting healing from the hurt.

““And whenever you stand praying, if you find that you carry something in your heart against another person, release him and forgive him so that your Father in heaven will also release you and forgive you of your faults.””
— (Mark 11:25, TPT)

Here is a question you could ask:

“Father God/Jesus/Holy Spirit, will you show me how any of these myths have hindered my forgiveness?”

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Faith & Trusting God (when I have trust issues)

Helping you navigate the tension between faith & mental health by looking at a tension point, a talking point and a truth to ponder.

Tension Point 

“I’m so tired of the Christian response to just ‘trust’ God. It’s not that easy! I don’t know how to trust – for me, trust has always led to feeling disappointed, or worse.”

Talking Point

Think about all the other relationships in your life. How many people do you trust implicitly? And what have you been through to get to that level of trust? When you think about it like that, choosing to trust God, a God that we can’t necessarily see or touch or have coffee with, can feel like a dangerous tightrope at times. Yes, we know He is good but trusting God can’t just be something we say. Trust always means putting skin in the game.
 
When we ask ‘Can I trust God?’ we are actually asking two questions. First: Is God trustworthy? Of course, as Christians, we know He is—this is an absolute Truth. But the second question is where it gets personal: Can I can trust God? As in, do I have what it takes to believe this absolute Truth?

Acknowledging what we bring to the relationship

In all of our other relationships, trust requires something from us. So why do we treat our relationship with God any differently? We can sometimes expect intimacy to come from religious devotion… as if just acknowledging that He is God is enough for us to throw ourselves into trusting Him as if we have never been hurt or let down before. But just like any other relationship, we still bring our relational baggage, our trust issues, our defence mechanisms and our fears of intimacy to it.
 
Think about the 'Trust Fall' exercise: that awkward exercise where one person falls blindly into the arms of another, relying on the integrity, strength and ability of that person to catch them. Even if you know the person waiting behind you, it can feel uncomfortable. This discomfort is a reflection of the internal vows and misconceptions about trust and the risk of getting hurt, looking stupid, being judged, or being betrayed.


The sad reality is that even if we are entirely safe with the person ready to catch us, these internal vows and misconceptions can make us feel like we are being sprung back, like being tied to an elastic cord, to those times we trusted someone and were let down, made to look foolish, misrepresented, abandoned, (insert your experience here!)

So, we hold something back to protect ourselves: a ‘prudent mistrust’, just in case. But this limits us. 

Truth to Ponder 

Getting to know God is the foundation of trusting Him. The simple truth is that without getting to know Him, our ability to trust Him is limited. But we also need to get to know ourselves so that we can identify the cords that hold us back from trusting God more freely.

Ready to go on that journey?! It can be hard, but trust us (pun intended), it's worth it...

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Faith & The Voice (of God) in My Head (or not)

Helping you navigate the tension between faith & mental health by looking at a tension point, a talking point and a truth to ponder.

Tension Point

"I'm not sure I have ever heard the voice of God in the way others seem to. I cry out in prayer and wait… but He feels so silent"

Talking Point

Have you ever cried out in prayer and waited, desperately, for that ‘voice of God’ that other Christians seem to talk about? We strain our ears hoping to hear words that will bring us peace, reassurance, direction, comfort, answers… And when we are met with silence, we can feel let down, abandoned and disillusioned.

But, does ‘hearing’ actually mean ‘hearing’?

Think about it, when you recall a number such as a phone number, how do you do it? Do you ‘hear’ the number in your head or the corresponding sound of the beeps? Or, instead, do you see the numbers, recall how you wrote them down, or remember the pattern your fingers make as you enter them?

We all receive, recall and process information differently…

Which means we learn and understand according to these different styles. The danger and resulting tension of only talking about ‘hearing’ God can be that we limit the way we might connect with Him. It’s the equivalent of only ever communicating by talking - imagine no written word; no sign language; no poetry; no art; no music; no dance.

Recognising how God might connect with us through our natural senses, is a good start in sharpening our sensitivity to Him and strengthening our confidence in receiving from Him. We can all grow in the gift of seeing, hearing and feeling God’s presence through practice, in the same way that spending time with someone makes it easier to recognise them in ways that are unique to your relationship with them.

Truth to Ponder 

The Truth is that God is everywhere, communicating to us through our senses, through His Word, through creation. These are the ways in which we may receive from God through our senses:

We May See Him
We may recognise Him speaking to us through our imagination, through visions and dreams or through supernatural encounters with Him, as if with our natural eyes. The Word of God documents many times where God engages with us this way.
(Acts 2:17) 

We May Hear Him
We may recognise Him speaking to us through a song, through sound or through a spirit to spirit conversation with Him, or we may even hear the audible sound of His Voice. 
(John 10:27)

We may FEEL Him
We may sense a shift in the atmosphere, or even in our own body, as a feeling of peace or warmth. We may also feel Him through a strong sense of conviction or a sense of ‘knowing’ which again, brings peace and directs our steps.
(Thessalonians 3:5)

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Faith & Mindfulness

Helping you navigate the tension between faith & mental health by looking at a tension point, a talking point and a truth to ponder.

Tension Point

“I hear about the benefits of mindfulness to my mental health but as a Christian, I don’t want practices of good mental health to replace practices of my faith, such as prayer. How can I be sure mindfulness is okay for me and won’t lead me down the wrong path?”

Talking Point

The practice of mindfulness has gained considerable attention as a technique for managing stress and enhancing mental wellbeing. But what exactly is mindfulness, and how does it align with our Christian faith?

What is Mindfulness?

Mindfulness, in its essence, involves deliberately focusing one's attention on the present moment, free from the distractions of incessant thoughts that often clutter the mind. Mindfulness entails quietening the mental "noise" to become more self-aware and attuned to the present moment's thoughts, feelings, and sensations. It can be part of our everyday activities or a discipline of intentionally setting time and space aside, like meditation or contemplative prayer.

Horizontal vs Vertical

Mindfulness, without Jesus at the centre, inevitably puts the self at the centre. When this happens, mindfulness becomes a self-centred, horizontal practice; connecting to our needs or emotions in the context of our immediate environment or circumstance. 

As Christians, we may be sceptical about mindfulness because of this, but when integrated with biblical principles, mindfulness can become a transformative practice that deepens our awareness of God and our relationship with Him. When we are mindful of God in the present moment and we acknowledge and welcome His presence, His peace and His voice, our mindfulness becomes vertical - connecting to our needs and emotions in the context of our relationship with God.

Truth to Ponder

So, how can we practise Christian mindfulness in a way that aligns with our faith? Here are some practical tips:

  • Start with prayer: Begin each mindfulness practice with prayer, inviting God's presence into the moment. Ask for His guidance in focusing your thoughts and opening your heart to His Presence.

  • Ground yourself in Scripture: Incorporate passages of Scripture into your mindfulness practice. Choose verses that resonate with you and reflect on their meaning.

  • Focus on gratitude: Cultivate an attitude of gratitude by reflecting on God's blessings in your life. Take time to acknowledge and give thanks for the gifts, both big and small, that God has provided.

  • Practice breath awareness: Use your breath as an anchor to the present moment. Take slow, deep breaths.

  • Embrace silence: In a world filled with noise and distractions, make space for silence in your life. Set aside time each day to retreat into solitude and silence, allowing yourself to quiet your mind and listen for God's voice.

  • Stay present in daily activities: Practise mindfulness in everyday tasks by bringing your full attention to each moment. Whether you're eating, walking, or spending time with loved ones, be fully present and engaged in the experience.

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Faith & Asking For Help

Helping you navigate the tension between faith & mental health by looking at a tension point, a talking point and a truth to ponder.

Tension Point

“I struggle to reach out for help. I feel like I SHOULD be able to cope on my own if I have Jesus. He’s all I need. Right?! But the truth is I’m floundering.”

Talking Point

I (Bryn, hello!) was once on holiday with twin nine month old babies. We went down to the buffet restaurant for dinner. We had three other children as well, so my wife queued up with them while I took the twins to find a table.

High chairs were scarce, but I eventually spotted two in the corner. I rushed over and attempted to carry them, as well as the twins, back to our table. So with both twins under one arm, and both highchairs in the other, I huffed and puffed my way towards the table.

Someone immediately jumped up and offered to help. But I smiled and said ‘no, I’m fine’ and struggled on. People gasped. It didn’t look safe and probably wasn’t! At one point I almost dropped them. Eventually one of the staff came over and insisted: ‘no no, let me help’. When he took the highchairs out of my hand, I was immediately relieved.

So what stopped me saying yes the first time?! Pride? A determination to show the world (or maybe myself) I could handle this on my own? I pondered this for the rest of my holiday, with a twinge of embarrassment as to why I attempted to persevere when it was so obvious I needed help.

Have you been struggling in the shadows?

There are times in our lives where we do the very same thing. We lift, and heave and try because we think we are navigating these challenges alone. We believe that the weight we are lifting is our burden to carry (or maybe ours and God's) and we don't want to bother anyone else with them. So, for multiple reasons, we feel too ashamed, embarrassed, prideful or mistrusting to reach out or accept help when it's offered.

What about you, have you been struggling in the shadows? What's stopping you from accepting (or asking for) help?

Truth to Ponder

In Ephesians 6 in The Message version of the bible it says this:

“Be prepared. You're up against far more than you can handle on your own. Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so that when it's all over but the shouting you'll still be on your feet. Truth, righteousness, peace, faith, and salvation are more than words. Learn how to apply them. You'll need them throughout your life. God's Word is an indispensable weapon. In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other's spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.”

God didn’t design us to carry our burdens alone.

God has given us tools and weapons to help whatever battles we are fighting, and sometimes those tools and weapons are the people around us: the people God has put in our path to journey with us.

Proverbs 17:17 says "A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need." If God has put friends in your path, He's put them there for times such as this.

Faith & Fear

Helping you navigate the tension between faith & mental health by looking at a tension point, a talking point and a truth to ponder.

Tension Point

"I often feel afraid. And the more I’m aware of my fear, the worse I feel because I know I should 'do better' and 'just have faith'. Which makes me feel like a failing Christian, and so the cycle continues."

Talking Point

The word 'Fear' seems to have been placed in direct opposition to the word ‘Faith’ for such a long time. After all, the phrase ‘do not fear!’ is mentioned a whopping 365 times in the Bible. So it’s easy to think that we shouldn’t be afraid and that God would be displeased if we were. But what if that phrase ‘do not fear’ is actually an invitation and an insight into the nurturing heart of God rather than a berating command?

Let’s just take a little pause here to recognise and honour the important role that fear plays. It is fear that signals us to prepare for danger and to take caution around things that can harm us. It often keeps us safe. Of course, we all have times where we recognise that our fear isn’t actually helping us, but if we can allow our perspective to shift, maybe we can give space for that fear to shift too... just not by force. 

Because what if God’s gentle whisper of ‘Do not fear’ is heard as ‘Do not worry, it’s OK, I’m here’ – a gentle parent’s calming tone to a fearful child needing reassurance, rather than ‘stop being scared'?

Truth to Ponder

My 6yr old is terrified of spiders. The whole house knows when she’s spotted one by her scream. But as I calmly undertake the spider-removal process, with her clung to my side, a transformation starts to take place: her fear seems to ease just by being in the presence of someone who’s not scared.

Could it be that God is not asking you to betray your own emotional responses ("Abi don’t be silly, don’t be daft etc"), but instead to notice how he responds in the same situation ("Look Abi, I’m not scared of it – I know it can’t hurt me... its legs are tickly!") and let your nervous system start to receive safety cues from him?

Thinking like this can help us reframe the story of Jesus sleeping in the boat (Matthew 8:23-27) with the terrified disciples in the storm. What if Jesus’ sleep on that terrifying journey was intentional; a way of showing his disciples it’s possible to be peaceful in a dangerous situation. I often say to my daughter when she’s recovering after a meltdown ‘you can borrow my calm.’ I wonder if Jesus was doing the same?

Maybe it’s only when we’re able to view God as that compassionate loving parent, that we can start to see that some of the things we might fear might not actually need that reaction. It’s ironic, isn’t it, that the more we punish ourselves for feeling fear, the further away God can feel and the scarier life is! But that’s not his intention – he wants to walk with us through the storm, to be a constant peaceful presence in our world, to give us his calm.

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Faith & the Wilderness

Helping you navigate the tension between faith & mental health by looking at a tension point, a talking point and a truth to ponder.

Tension Point

"I feel like I’ve been out in the wilderness when it comes to faith for so long. I wonder if it will ever change?"

Talking Point

Have you ever felt ‘lost in the wilderness’ when it comes to your faith? Do you have a sense of wandering, lostness, a lack of direction or feeling like you aren’t in the place you thought you’d be on your faith journey?

Often, when life is going well and we feel good, we can sense that God is close and our relationship with him is in a good place. But when life is tough, we can feel as if God isn’t as close or that our relationship with him isn’t quite as healthy as we thought it was. 

We may be deeply grieving or coming face-to-face with past trauma. We might have felt on the outskirts of church community or been re-assessing some of our core beliefs. Or maybe we’ve always experienced that wilderness sensation ever since deciding to follow Jesus. Whatever the reason, it can feel lonely, particularly if we can reference times in the past when we have experienced being ‘close’ to God, enjoying fellowship with other believers. 

We often link faith with a sense of being found, known, held, seen and in the right place. But when life gets heavy or we’re hurting, there follows a sense of not being as close to God as the doubts, waves of anger and mistrust seep in. This can feel so disconcerting.

Truth to Ponder

Isn’t it interesting that much of Jesus’ teaching to the people he loves focuses on those who are lost, scattered or hiding? The lost sheep (Luke 15) already belonged to him – it was part of his fold – and yet the sheep still got lost in the wilderness. 

Of course, we refer to being ‘lost’ as not having yet found Jesus, but maybe feeling lost can also embrace the everyday, the highs and lows and daily grind. Jesus says ‘It’s not the healthy that need a doctor but the sick’ (Mark 2:17) And yes, this is in relation to the sickness of sin… but let’s not forget that he was also talking to people who had been cast down socially and spiritually. 

Being ‘lost’ is the acknowledgement that we cannot navigate this life alone, the very need we have to belong to God is the essence of faith. We don’t just need to be ‘found’ once at the beginning of our salvation story, but throughout our lives, in moments of feeling misunderstood, hurting or hiding. Whenever we are ‘lost’ God is right there. He offers us his kindness and compassionate care to re-centre us and meet with us.

Next Steps...? 

Notice what you are experiencing and ask yourself- do I know why I feel distant and lost? Awareness can be the first step in acknowledging what is happening and what you want to be different. 

Why not talk to someone you can trust about what you are experiencing, either a friend or a counsellor or therapist who can help you make sense of your experience in a non-judgemental space. 

Can you show yourself compassion as you daily acknowledge your lostness, and allow yourself to imagine being found by God with kindness and care? (Notice if you find this concept of a gentle God foreign, you may want to address this in further depth, perhaps with a counsellor).

Sometimes this experience can derive from the belief deep inside that God either doesn’t want us close, or will reject us, so we feel safer in the wilderness. These beliefs are valid and it can take some time to unpack the hold they have over us. Exploring this with a professional or one of our facilitators on the Freedom Course can be beneficial.

Grief & Loss

How can I support a friend who has experienced a recent bereavement?

There is no rule book for processing grief. Everyone experiences and expresses it differently. The following suggestions are both ways you can support your friend and ideas your friend may wish to consider to help them begin to process their emotions and experiences.  

  • Often straight after the bereavement, the instinct is to give someone space although that can be the time when someone needs to know most that they are not alone. Try to resist the temptation to back off until they contact you and instead, let them know that you are there. 

  • Be aware that the weeks and months after the bereavement are often the hardest as that is when everyone goes back to their normal routine and lives, leaving those deep in grief with a sense of detachment from normality. 

  • Encourage your friend to feel - fully feel. It sounds obvious, but the waves of extreme emotions you experience when bereaved can be really hard to fully allow. Guilt, anger, sadness, anxiety, hopelessness, amongst many other emotions, will rise and fall – encourage space to be made for all according to whatever they need.

  • Grief is experienced entirely differently by each person. No experience of grief is the same. Avoid any kind of language that compares or suggests they should be moving through or feeling better or moving on in their grief. 

  • Be directive in your practical support. Don’t tell them to just ask if they need anything.  Instead, let them know what you’ll do and check that suits them. (“I was just popping to the shops. I’ll pick up some dinners for you- will you be in if I drop them off at 7?”)

  • You could offer your friend a means of personal expression, should they want to use it. You might know that they journal, or paint, or enjoy using spreadsheets for example. They might want to just write or create or make lists - anything that allows them to honestly and authentically process and express what comes up for them as they grieve. 

  • Be mindful of significant dates that may have been celebrated or remembered in some way. Your friend may wish to mark those dates in a personal way e.g. visit a significant place, go for a walk, think of a significant activity (for example place flowers, release a balloon, read out a letter etc). Making space to mark a significant date helps with processing grief and loss. 

  • Make a memory box. This involves putting together a box with photos, letters, memories etc. They can go through the box when they want to remember the person and allow themselves space to grieve. Creating a memory box is a good way of remembering loved ones. It also gives the feeling of protecting or gathering positive memories. 

  • It can be really helpful to talk to a trusted friend or trained person who can help someone process all that comes up as they grieve. 

  • It can be tempting to offer simple comments when we are unsure of what to say. Avoid using spiritual language or out of context bible verses that are unrelated to grief and imply in any way that they should be more hopeful/ joyful/ strong and courageous/ happy their loved one is with Jesus. It will do more harm to supress deep sorrow than aide recovery. 

  • Write an ‘unsent letter’ to the person you lost. Write down what you miss, your memories (good and bad), what you might have liked to say to them, any regrets you may have etc. You can even process any forgiveness this way too and make peace, as you heal. Writing a letter provides you with a space to express your honest thoughts and feelings in order to explore further any themes that may come up. Letter writing also allows thoughts and feelings to be processed that were previously unacknowledged.

  • It is normal to want to avoid painful feelings and memories. Escapism through addictive coping mechanisms, ie alcohol in excess, electronics, over-working or recreational drugs may offer very short term relief, but addictive behaviours make it more difficult to manage our feelings and ultimately to heal. 

  • Encourage your friend to seek advice when making any significant decisions especially those with long-term consequences or which are life-altering in some way. Grief and loss causes confusion and it can influence our decision making ability. This is because our brain is actually functioning differently with higher levels of stress hormones. It is common to experience confusion and memory loss during this time.

It is worth remembering that if you feel a pull to want to fix or move your friend through their grief, take a step back. This is their life, their journey, their pain and you as a friend are there to love, to bring kindness and to listen. The above ideas may or may not be useful to your friend as this experience will be unique to them. What you can do without restraint is bring them before the God who sees deep into their pain, who weeps with them and who loves them.

Artificial Stabilisers

As you go through our Keys to Freedom Workbook, you’ll find an illustration of a child's bike that has stabilisers on it. This image describes the way that we as humans often rely on things in life to keep us both safe and stable, coping strategies that act as a substitute for the role of God in our lives. 

Within church we may be familiar with teachings that tell us how important it is to rely on God. We all believe it is important for us to surrender to him and to let him rule our lives. And yet the reality of this concept presents us with a number of challenges.

The aim of this article is to help us notice those challenges rather than ignoring them. But also to confront the perceptions we may have around the teaching, to understand further the heart of God and how he cares for us, in order for us to consider laying down our stabilisers.

Firstly let's see what the Bible says about relying fully on God:

Isaiah 26:4. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding

James 4:7 submit yourselves then to God.

Jeremiah 10:23 Lord I know that people's lives are not their own it is not for them to direct their steps

Romans 12:12 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Noticing what your internal response is as you read those verses this will give you an idea of your starting point. Please note it is OK for you to read these verses and feel like depending on God isn't something you are comfortable doing. At worst it may bring up terror within you.

Let's be fully honest right now, what God seems to be suggesting is that we let go of anything that gets in the way of our dependence on him and what that might mean for some of us is huge.

Before we go any further our first point is to recognise the nature of God within this. He is not a God who is demanding, who has extremely high expectations or who is cruel. Our God does not walk up to a human on crutches and kick the crutch out from underneath them ruthlessly demanding them to do better and just try walking alone. If that image of God resonates with you right now take a moment to notice it because it may be that before you consider artificial stabilisers you may wish to make space to heal from wherever that concept of God has come from in your life. 

The reality could not be further from the truth. As the most loving father, God’s desire is that he would be the all-providing all-nurturing God of comfort, peace and provision that you need from your heavenly parent. Not because he has an ego that needs massaging but because he's a loving parent who loves his child so much that he wants to, and can be, everything that you could ever need. It gives him pleasure to bring you comfort, it gives him pleasure to meet your needs, because you bring him pleasure and not only does he want to provide all these things for you but he can provide all these things for you. It is a love exchange not a demanding command.

As we consider what artificial stabilisers we have in our own lives, there may be a number of thoughts that come to mind. I find it helpful to imagine a scale in my mind. At one end of the scale there is a mobile phone, a vape, maybe a packet of biscuits or an online shopping cart. And all the way at the other end of the scale there may be isolating, intellectualising, multiple sexual partners, spiritualising, high achieving, for example. At one end of the scale is more specific habits and items we use and the other end more general (and maybe harder to identify) ways of being. Each example listed relates to our human experience where there is something that we need that we are trying to meet ourselves whether that be safety, comfort, emotional regulation or a way of hiding, all born out of what we need.

Which brings me to the key to all of this... our needs. 

The role of a parent is to meet the needs of a child. As children we all had needs and those needs were valid and essential for our survival. We needed to be fed, we needed to be held, we needed to be loved, we needed to be kept warm (Maslow's hierarchy of needs might be helpful if you wish to look further at this subject). We needed comfort if we hurt ourselves, we needed safety where we felt scared, amongst many other things.

When we are able to recognise where maybe some of those needs in childhood weren't met, we can start to piece together where some of our own artificial stabiliser behaviours may come from. We may start to see that a number of patterns of our behaviour are actually about ways that we are meeting our own needs ourselves because they weren't met for us when they needed to be - or whether they were met in ways that, now, don’t seem quite so healthy for us as adults. 

Here's an example: As a child, whenever Sarah was upset or emotional, her mum would simply hand her a sweet treat. It made her feel good, it stopped her tears. Her need in that moment was for comfort, whilst her mum may have sought to appease her need, it wasn’t met in a healthy way- through emotional response and physical comfort of presence, but instead, through food. Now as an adult, Sarah finds herself reaching for sweet food in order to feel that comfort she needed whenever she feels emotions rising. The food makes her feel good and comforted- but the experience is short-lived and ultimately leaves Sarah feeling worse than before. If Sarah were to consider this as an artificial stabiliser, how might she want God to meet that need within her? 

Another example - this one is about significance: Alex’s experience as a child was with a father who loved him but made him feel as if he never quite measured up. As Alex grew, his need to feel significant and valued by his Dad drew him into high powered, high stress jobs. Through these, he gained a name for himself, respect from peers and a high salary, but ultimately driven by his need for value, this stabiliser can only be met by a God who gives us our worth.  

Maybe by understanding this about ourselves, we can start to find some self-compassion for our ways of being and behaviours that seem so hard to give up or walk away from or hand over to God. Maybe, we can start to entertain the idea that God feels the same way too- compassionate, understanding, empathetic and gentle to our ways that have felt so safe to us, despite offering us-often- very little safety or resolution in reality. 

And so, what next?

Once we are aware of our artificial stabilisers, and the role that they play in meeting our needs, what do we do with them? Remembering that ‘My God shall supply all your needs according to the riches of Christ Jesus’ is a safe place to start. We belong to a living God who tells us that he is able to meet ALL our needs via his absolute riches that he wants to give us.

And then, asking and allowing God to reveal to us what the stabiliser is, where it came from, who we may need to forgive for not meeting that need in us, and choosing to hand it to him  (where he says it is safe to do so). The precious thing about this moment is that in all of this, I imagine that God's favourite part is being able to tell you how he wishes to meet that need within you himself. And allowing yourself to consider life without that stabiliser and instead, keeping your eyes open and senses aware to how he chooses to do this in your everyday life.

God made us human and so is fully aware that our human habits are not easily broken. Sometimes you may notice a change straight away in your desire to use that stabiliser but sometimes these changes require perseverance and a commitment from us to start partnering with God and living out a new way of being that is treasured, held, and delighted in. 

Whilst the above may seem simple (or not!) it is important to notice, again, your internal response when it comes to handing over old behaviours to God. This is because we only we are only able to do this when we have a felt or known perception of God that we can trust him to provide our needs and that he is safe enough for us to be able to do this. It is OK to notice if the concept of trusting him enough to do this is too much for you. Just as in human relationships, trust has to be developed and worked on over time.

Whilst we know that God is the most trustworthy being in the universe, our experience of human interactions who have let us down may leave us questioning whether he is in fact trustworthy as we project our fear onto him. Inviting God to show you the truth, alongside support from someone you trust will be key.

To re-visit the image of the child’s bike we described at the start, it’s worth noting that a child’s stabilisers aren’t whipped off ready for them to fall as soon as they get on the bike for the first time.  There is a confidence growing, a practice, a trust in the parent that is necessary first. God wont ask you to take off something that isn’t safe to be removed, but he will help you see where you have stabilisers that make you ‘feel’ safe, but in fact are keeping you from him. There is also a reality that you may have developed many of these stabilisers in childhood…but as an adult these don’t serve you so well anymore, because you aren’t a child anymore. By letting yourself acknowledge how these stabilisers may have held you, but are no longer needed, is an important aspect of the healing journey. To then invite God into that need (we will always have needs!) is the essence of casting your cares on him/ letting him hold you/ putting your trust in him/ surrendering to him.

(TW) Self-Harm

When considering the term self-harm, a number of perspectives come into play. Maybe you have a friend or family member who struggles with self-harm and you are looking for help. Maybe you are supporting someone pastorally in your church or maybe you have used pain yourself as a coping technique…

Whichever angle you read this article from, we hope to bring clarity over what self-harm is and hopefully debunk some unhelpful myths. Hopefully, this article will help to provide some next steps, or even just allow you to be seen if this is something that you are coping with each day. 

Self-harm is a broad umbrella term for harming oneself as a way of coping.

It can bring about a sense of short-term relief from distress someone may be experiencing either through overwhelming experiences, memories or feelings like intense anger or stress. Self-harm can be a way of an individual expressing their inner emotional pain. It can also be a means of self-punishment, a way to feel in control or to avoid traumatic memories.

It can be common to feel an ‘urge’ to want to self-harm, or for it to be triggered by a moment, event, sensation that compels a response or desire to feel release. The urge to self-harm can be accompanied by feelings of low worth or self-hatred. 

To those on the outside of the experience, it may seem counterintuitive to inflict harm on self in order to alleviate pain. But to the individual experiencing it, feeling something when feeling emotionally numb or empty, or it being like an expression outwardly of what’s taking place inwardly can bring relief, if only for a short time. Self-harm can also give the feeling that internal stress or anxiety is somehow being managed and controlled. 

There are several beliefs swirling around- let’s be honest, particularly in Christian circles- that can make an individual’s healing journey much more complicated. Let’s unpack them here.

Unhelpful Myths

The problem will go away if we don’t draw attention to it

The exact opposite is actually true. (and, if left unchallenged, this belief can make us complicit in a church culture that hides abuse and other harm). The more self-harm is brushed away or kept quiet or secretive, the more harmful it can become. Those who self-harm need a safe and welcoming space that encourages them to be open with peers or those close to them. Shame will never benefit a person and instead cause the problem to become more private and the individual more isolated.

The more attention we draw to it, the more we condone it.

No. In order to support and help, we HAVE to be prepared to challenge the stigma surrounding self-harm. We HAVE to be able to embrace this as not something to be ashamed of or alienated because of. If someone is in pain because they’ve broken their leg at Monday night football, we don’t tell them they should be ashamed for the noise they’re making and throw bible verses at them about how they haven’t looked after their body. In the same way, we must approach the outward expression of inward pain with gentleness, understanding and be willing to give that pain a voice- should it wish to be heard.

By giving a person alternative ways to express their pain (see list below) we are still promoting causing pain to self.

No, they are already in pain. If we focus our attention on the ‘act’ then we lose sight of the reason behind the self-harm, the why behind the what. The internal pain or distress someone is in should be our focus.  However, there can be complications of ongoing self-harm leading to medical intervention and so alternative methods can be helpful in helping alleviate ‘the urge’ and the possible complications of self-injury.

Self-harm is a way of attention seeking

This is a myth that, troublingly, has done a great deal of damage both inside and outside of the church. If we can re-shape our thinking to understand that those who self-harm are not attention-seeking but seeking release from the distress they are experiencing, then our ability to care, to be present and to be a listening ear should it be needed will be positively impacted.

Self-harm is an intent to commit suicide

Self harm can be entirely unrelated to suicidal thoughts or intent. Just because someone self-harms, doesn’t mean they are entertaining thoughts of suicide. However it is worth noting that the persistent feelings of self-hatred and low worth can sometimes exacerbate the ideation of suicide, along with the persistent pattern of causing damage to the body. If you are supporting an individual, keep open communication with them. 

Along with myths, there are a number of unhelpful Bible passages that have been used in order to try and stop someone from self-harming. The premise of this is if we can make someone feel guilty or bad for doing it, via scripture no less, then they will stop. Whilst the passages themselves are full of truth -yes, our bodies are temples for the Holy Spirit and are therefore sacred, for example- it is not helpful to share this with someone in the hope that this will deter them. It won’t. It’s important to remember that individuals who self-harm are not trying to go against the truth of God, they are struggling to cope with the build up of stress/ anger/fear inside of them, and that should be our starting place- safety, no judgement, kindness. If there is already a perception in someone that they are not worthy or deserving of kindness or love, or they are punishing themselves, then using scriptures in this way will only increase that sense. 

We strongly recommend that these passages are not taken out of context to try and address someone’s urge to self-harm. They can do much more harm than good.

Next Steps

If you struggle with self-harm:

  • If you are self-harming, you are not faulty or a bad Christian. You are in pain, and you deserve for that to be recognised.

  • If you are self-harming there are ways to help you deal with the sometimes-overwhelming feelings or experiences you are living with. If you feel this is out of control or taking over your life, talk to a trusted professional or seek help.

  • Expression of feelings is key- by any mode. If talking isn’t your bag, or a place you’re at, then there are other means of expression. Creative forms particularly are helpful in enabling us to connect with our feelings without having to put words to them, and instead use the arts- dance or movement, drama, art or music (drumming can be a really effective expression of anger and pain) and all of which enable expression of our internal world. Church hasn’t historically been comfortable with expression, so it may be that you notice some barriers to self-expression in your own world- notice them.

Where to get help

  • If you or someone else is in danger, call 999 or go to A&E 

  • If you need urgent help for your mental health, get help from NHS 111 online or call 111

  • The National Self-Harm Network is a support forum for those who are struggling or ideating: https://www.nshn.co.uk/

  • Harmless “the national centre of excellence for self harm and suicide prevention” provide support and information: www.harmless.org.uk 

  • You can also call your local GP

  • Speak to your counsellor

If you are supporting someone who self-harms:

  • Your job is not to relieve them of their internal pain. Don’t try it, don’t do it. If you aren’t qualified to help individuals locate and express their inner world, don’t do it. Help the individual- if they want- to find someone who can help. Some individuals may never feel comfortable revealing that pain to anyone- don’t expect it, don’t push for it.

  • If your family member or friend is self-harming, take steps to be a safe person. No preaching, no using Bible verses to shame them, just a safe listening ear should they need. Be aware of your own responses to heightened or uncomfortable emotions. How comfortable do you feel expressing your feelings healthily? You may want to become comfortable with basic first aid. This can feel uncomfortable, almost a kind of ‘just accepting this is how it is’- yes, that is what it is. Your job is not to rescue or prevent it. Your job is to be there with kindness and care. 

  • Think about how you can help others to understand their emotions in a simple way, ie there are many great resources available now to help children and adults understand their emotions and self-regulation. Learn how to self-soothe in order to share with others, and never underestimate the role of kindness, encouraging others to be kind to themselves- their inner voice, their self-care actions, all these speak of letting pain be allowed to come out in healthy ways.

  • It can be really hard to see a loved one hurting themselves. If you need to, find help and speak with someone you trust about how it is impacting you.

Low Self-Esteem

What is low self-esteem?

Self-esteem is how we perceive ourselves- what we feel we are worth and what value we believe we hold. Low self- esteem, therefore, refers to when an individual feels that they are lacking in worth, value and a sense of who they are in comparison to others.

How do I know if I have low self-esteem?

One way to notice how you feel about yourself is being aware of how you talk to yourself - it will tell you a lot about how you view yourself and what you feel you are worthy of. 

Other signals you may notice might be comparison with others, or making decisions in your life always based on what others think you should do, or what you imagine others would want from you. It can be accompanied by a lack of feeling in control of your own life or being able to make choices based on your own wants and needs. You may find it hard to say no or you may feel that you’re not really deserving of good things.

What impacts my self-esteem?

We all feel low self-esteem in our lives at some point. Our self-esteem (who we feel we are) can often be impacted by circumstances and people around us and that starts at a very early age in our development, whether through parents, community, peers, teachers, or whoever we engage with in the world. As social creatures we soak in the opinions, comments, nuances of body language and behaviours of other people - whether we realise it (consciously) or not (sub-consciously) and it all builds up a picture within us of who we really are. 

Someone may be able to locate that they have low self-esteem very easily. It may impact their life to the extent that they don’t feel any control over their own life or choices, or barely hold a sense of self. But it can also impact individuals in very subtle ways, whether it’s not feeling worthy of their place in the supermarket queue or feeling uncomfortable with any genuine expression of affection or praise at work for example.

Self-esteem and different viewpoints

Self-esteem can be a contentious phrase in the Christian world.  

Whilst this article does not seek to argue with or rip apart theological perspectives- after all, there are many and each has a different starting point- there is an important perspective to bring as we look at the theme of self-esteem. 

We were born human. Whether theologically we believe that we were born evil or born good, what we can all agree on is that as babies we grow and develop a sense of ‘self’. In a healthy situation, this ‘self’ is nurtured and developed. We develop a sense of being in the world, of curiosity, of safety, of likes and dislikes. We learn of our ability to make choices, to reason, to assert ourselves in the world and relate to others. This is what is means to be human, created by God. This is important to remember, because the self-esteem we are talking about is not a self-centric ‘I can do this life without God’ or ‘I don’t need his love because I love myself already’. But instead a sense that we have a place in the world and that that is good and God-given.

Where is God in our low self-esteem?

The simple answer to that is that:

a) He believes we are the bees’ knees* and

b) our life experiences often lead us to find it really hard to believe that concept.

Rather than feelings of low self-esteem being something we can become aware of and explore, we can often find ourselves feeling shame or guilt (low self-worth anyone?) for how we feel about ourselves, and how we must be disappointing God for feeling that way. We may even be told by others that we are wrong for feeling that way because God disagrees. But shame can push us even further away from the truth about who we really are despite the reality that in his eyes, we have worth, we have value and are loved. 

When we feel a low sense of self-worth we can sometimes tell ourselves that we ‘shouldn’t’ feel or think that way because God loves us, referencing scriptures that tell us how we instead ‘should’ feel. 

However sometimes that can become a small sticky plaster over a gaping wound that needs attention, because in essence we’re trying to convince ourselves of something we don’t believe.  Does God’s word re-shape our thinking and sense of self? Absolutely! Can his Word tear down things we think about ourselves that aren’t true? 100% yes! But God invites us into that journey, not by slapping us with his Word but by gently encouraging us to explore why we don’t believe it, to notice and to encounter him as we encounter ourselves. 

There’s no denying that when we have low self-esteem and we first come to God, we’ll often feel a sense of self increase i.e a sense of being wanted, of being loved, of even being liked! It is testament to God’s nature as a healing God that even just knowing God changes something within us feeling more loved. 

But, when we notice a huge chasm between how God perceives us versus how we perceive us, there’s an invitation to notice how we feel about ourselves and to even begin to challenge those thoughts.

Some helpful ideas and activities

If you can identify with any of the above and have low self-worth, there are some things you could do that may help you. 

  • Ask people you trust to make a list of positive qualities they see in you. Maybe you could do this with a group of friends and add to each other’s lists? This won’t change your self-perception overnight! But it does help to increase peer support and build self-confidence.  

  • Regularly make time for doing things that you enjoy, maybe visit your favourite coffee shop or take a walk you enjoy. You may find it hard even recognising what you enjoy- take some time to find out! Doing things you like on a regular basis can build in the habit of recognising your own needs and desires which may have previously been neglected or ignored.

  • Regularly practice activities you enjoy doing, for example a hobby or craft, or learning a new language. Improving your skills in an activity or craft can increase your confidence levels. 

  • Develop a nurturing, kind vocabulary- maybe a list of words and phrases- and practise using it regularly. Avoid statements that include ‘I should’ or ‘I must’ as these imply living to someone else’s expectations. Instead, consider how you might speak to a child and offer encouragement rather than criticism i.e if you drop something, ‘never mind, that will be easy to clean up’ or if you make a mistake, ‘It’s OK, you’re OK, nobody’s perfect’. Recognising our self-talk and replacing it can build kindness and self-nurture as adults, impacting our sense of self. 

  • Take a pause before saying ‘yes’ to someone. Reflect on why you are saying yes; ‘Is this to please the other or is it what I want and need to do?’ If you find this hard, explore and challenge your fears behind saying no and even practice saying it and noticing what comes up as you do. By taking a step back from your commitments you can start to recognise your own needs, desires, preferences and opinions. By learning to respond to these, you will develop self-awareness and assertiveness.

  • Consider how you interact with God’s Word. When you read a verse about who he says you are, notice how it makes you feel. Do you agree? Do you disagree? Does it make you feel uncomfortable? Be curious- ask yourself why and consider whether you’ve always felt that way. These are the first steps in exploring where your thoughts about yourself may have started and empowering you to challenge them. Try asking yourself with curiosity:  ‘If God says I am ______, then why do I believe I am ________? Rather than ‘If God says I am _______, then I should believe I am ________’. 

  • As you grow in self-understanding you may feel confident enough to begin to challenge some of your perceptions and beliefs about yourself. Don’t rush this process! Let yourself play around with Bible verses- personalise them, be creative with them. Why not ask God what he says about you in response to each particular thought that you have?

These are just some ways to begin to develop your own sense of self and explore your low self-esteem. As always, we recommend support - whether from a trusted friend or a counsellor who may help you explore your own perceptions and beliefs further.

Who am I in Christ?

Use this tool and learn about the high esteem you are held in.

Trauma Triggers

But what is trauma?

Trauma can be summed up as being the experience of a distressing event or series of events that have caused us harm. Trauma impacts our sense of safety, sense of self, our ability to feel emotions and our ability to connect relationally with others. Trauma cannot be defined by the event itself, but by the impact it has on each individual. 

What are triggers?

A trauma trigger is when we experience something through our senses (smell, taste, touch, sight, sound), that reminds our brain of that first traumatic experience. Despite it belonging in our past, our bodies experience our trauma as if it were in the present and our brains react accordingly. 

It could be that a particular smell of perfume, or the sound of someone’s voice takes your mind back to something that you notice impacts your body and thoughts. You may, for example, start feeling panicky or may notice yourself ‘phasing out’ and disconnecting from the world around you. 

Triggers can also be associated with happy experiences. The smell of a friend’s cooking may trigger you back to happy memories of your own childhood home, in this scenario you are living in the present but transported back the memory and feelings associated. 

Triggers can vary greatly in severity. You may go through life having not experienced a trigger, only to find it becomes a regular occurrence depending on what you are processing at the time.  On the other hand, triggers may be a daily occurrence for you, but may become less and less over time as you start to practice compassion with yourself in dealing with them. 

For example, someone can happily attend a prayer group for years of their life and then a memory of a negative experience, relating to prayer, may come into their awareness (their thoughts, memories or conversations). Suddenly the person feels anxious and sweaty at the idea of going to the prayer group, of being around others associated with the group, experiencing being ‘triggered’ back into an experience previously not in their thoughts or memories. This may develop as a total inability to attend or be near that group until the individual has been able to establish a sense of safety, helping their brain calm, get back online and rationalise the existence of the present rather than the past. 

What are flashbacks?

Triggers can sometimes lead to flashbacks, where someone is not only reminded of a memory linked to the trauma and the sensations that come with it, but they experience it again in their own reality. 

A flashback is experienced as if it were time-travel, where the brain re-enacts a traumatic experience or an individual is transported in their mind back to a particular traumatic place. An individual’s thoughts, emotions and bodily sensations all respond as it were taking place now in the present moment, making it extremely difficult to stay in contact with reality. 

Ways to help

Whilst triggers and flashbacks can feel debilitating, particularly when experienced frequently, it is absolutely possible to work with your triggers to lessen the impact they have on you. This is particularly true in relation to our senses. Just as they are the avenue by which we get triggered, they can also be our way out and of regulating* ourselves.

*Regulating is basically the word used to describe your nervous system’s way of calming down. When you are regulated, your breathing becomes more natural and normal, your heart rate stabilizes, you feel more in control and able to think. Essentially, when dysregulated, your back brain takes control, it’s fighting for your survival so all your body’s energy is going into that. Once regulated, your front brain becomes reactivated, it starts to take the reigns and help you start thinking clearly and rationally again enabling problem-solving, staying present in the moment and connecting with people.

Dissociation

Essentially, dissociation is an incredibly clever and natural brain mechanism that acts as a protector from stress and harm. 

Dissociation can be experienced as a normal, everyday habit used to combat mild stress or boredom, a ‘zoning out’ like reading a book or daydreaming. Then, there is the disassociation that is connected to PTSD or trauma. When someone is experiencing trauma or hurt, their brain responds by essentially attempting to shield them from the hurt. When we experience severe distress, the brain shuts down in order to not have us experience or live through the traumatic moment or series of events. 

This can be experienced as a disconnection from emotions, identity, memories, perception and a sense of self, depending on the dissociative disorder. It can feel like things are not real or give you a sense of ‘disappearing’ or ‘disconnecting’.

The important things to remember:

  1. It is the process of our incredible brains making sure that we are not overcome by the stress of the experience.

  2. By learning to manage our stress responses and healing, we will notice dissociative occurrences reduce as time goes on. 


A short guide on dissociative disorders

PTSD/Trauma/ Dissociative Amnesia

Gaps in one’s memory, either spanning moments or years. In relation to an event, being unable to remember parts of the event or which part of the day, or unable to recall the event entirely.

Depresonalization and derealistation

Disconnection from your own mind, body or thoughts. Disconnection from the world and reality around you, people and environments around you not feeling real.

DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder)

Previously known as multiple personality disorder. Where two or more distinct personalities are present, each identity with their own way of being, often with different roles being played out. 

Where is God in Dissociation?

The whole process of dissociation itself is a God-given, protective mechanism. But the disruption that it may bring to daily life can be extremely tough to live with. 

Hope can be found in beginning to cultivate self-compassion and self-reflection, and as we face how we really feel, healing can come into view. There are good people out there who can help this process and therapists can provide us with a place where we can give voice to those thoughts, feelings and experiences. It may not be a quick process but it can be transformative as it provides space to really hear ourselves and be heard. 

God loves us - every single part and trace of us - not the future healed ‘version’, but the current reality of who we are. He loves us and longs to listen to us and be our witness as we pay attention to those areas in need of a compassionate voice that may be hidden away. 

Our Creator is the One who dreamed us up, who decided who we were, what we look like, sound like, even how we smell! And so, he is the One (sometimes along with other safe people) who can lovingly help us rebuild a sense of self and reconnect with reality in a way that is safe and stable. 

God can be present in all that you feel- and all that you don’t feel. As your creator he fully knows all of your brain's responses and doesn’t place any pressure on you to ‘not be that way’ but instead He cares for you. If you feel like your dissociative moments have gone on for too long or are happening too regularly, start with self-compassion and understand that there is always a why behind the what. As we learn to trust him and others we can start walking into healing.


Reclaiming Our True Identity: God’s Role in Healing and Integration

Our own human ‘sense of self’ is so important to our understanding of who we are; our identity as children of God. It’s not just therapy talk, or new age ramblings, but an essential part of being human. The important Biblical teaching that we die to self can become very confusing here, because the implication can sometimes be that ‘we’ as a human with a sense of self, have to leave that behind to become a disembodied being that has a new identity in Christ. Thus, a spiritual dissociation can take place, where we place another layer of disconnection between our core self and God. Do we become more Christlike as we walk with God? Yes. But that doesn’t forsake our humanity and who we are as individuals to him. 

If we can regain a sense of inhabiting our own bodies, our own world, we can start to piece together (and he can within us) our original blueprint- who he made us to be and is inviting us back into. 

This is where a re-connection with a God of kindness and goodness can take the forefront. An essential part of healing involves practicing kindness to ourselves- it is invaluable in reconnecting with ourselves and God as kind and gentle. In order to practice this kindness, instead of punishing or shaming the mechanism that keeps us safe through dissociation,  instead we can practice appreciating the way our brains can keep us safe from tough life experiences. 

Regardless of where we are on the healing spectrum, God is there.

Next Steps:

The scale of dissociation is a really important factor in considering next steps. 

At the lower end of the scale you’re likely to zone out and use, for example, screens as a way of tuning out uncomfortable feelings. Mild dissociation looks like gaps in memory, being in autopilot, feeling a mild sense of disconnection. Dissociation at the other end of the scale involves losing awareness of time and memories, maybe a sense of not quite inhabiting yourself and can be quite terrifying, and then DID, where different identities are created in order to cope with trauma. 

If you are reading this and you recognise or associate with the higher end of the scale described, we recommend that you seek help from a professional with specific training in dissociative disorders. 

If you are reading this as a people helper/ pastoral support and you recognise that someone experiences the higher end of the dissociative scale, we encourage you to be confident in where your role begins and ends: unless you are an expert in this field, step aside and let a professional in who can safely bring help and support. 

If you can identify with the lower scale of dissociation as described, then you may wish to consider the following:

  • Start considering how you might practice self-compassion. For example, what does your internal voice sound like? What would a kind, compassionate voice sound like?

  • Share with someone you trust how you are feeling and what you are experiencing. Know that you are worthy of love and support. They may be able to help you to start asking gentle questions and exploring the why behind the what. 

  • mind.org.uk has an excellent collection of resources on how to care for yourself as you cope with dissociation, and recommendations for further action.

  • Speak to your GP.  Not everyone will find this beneficial depending on how you feel you are coping, but if dissociation is taking over your life, speak to your GP.   

  • Therapy. You may wish to find a specialist in dissociation as not all counsellors and therapists are trained specifically  in this area so it’s worth doing your homework to see who can best support you. Organisations such as BACP (British Association for Counselling and Psychotherapy) , NCPS (National Counselling and Psychotherapy Society) or ACC (Association for Christian Counsellors) all have websites that can help you navigate what you are looking for. 

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Anxiety

We all have times when we feel anxious. 

But let’s be honest, anxiety has a bad reputation in the Christian world. Whether it’s condemning any kind of anxious thought to the ‘no faith’ camp, or hearing Jesus’s words ‘do not worry’ through the lens of ‘must do better’, we’re often uncomfortable to admit that anxiety may be part of the (Christian) human experience…

And yet, the ability to notice and acknowledge its presence in our lives is an important step in being able to heal. There is no shame in feeling anxious. 

Anxiety serves as a warning, an alarm signalling that there might be something to worry about and prepare for. Often it is stimulated by past events and experiences, whereby our brain prepares for action based on those experiences. There may be things anxiety helps us prepare for. For example, if we have a job interview next week, anxiety is what encourages us to prepare well and have all bases covered. But when anxiety overwhelms us, it becomes fixated on the job interview and all the possible outcomes, for which our brain is naturally wired to view negatively.

It can be helpful to consider another way we experience this in our lives - think about ‘doom scrolling’ when we access social media and our brains are doing just this - preparing for every eventuality. Notice whether your heart rate increases at all when you do this - that’s anxiety getting above it’s useful station!

In these situations, just having someone to talk to about what your anxiety feels like and what is making you anxious can be a big relief of the pressure inside your mind. It may be a friend or someone you trust, but it may also help to speak to a professional -a counsellor or therapist-whose job is to listen without judgement as you share. 

It is helpful to notice what is taking place in your body as you feel the anxiety…

Where do you notice it? What impact is it having on your movements? Being aware of this can then help you train your body further down the line to relax when you notice it responding to the anxious thought, sending different signals to the brain. Often, our breathing is one of the most obvious signals, so try focusing here. Breathing sounds so simple and yet when we consciously control our breath it has the incredible ability to get our brain back ‘online’ and away from fear. Try ‘box breathing’ for example, where you imagine drawing a square in front of you, breathing in for 4, breathing out for 4, and repeating. 

Another step could be to allow yourself a set time in the day to acknowledge what those worries are. Perhaps create a worry box or worry list, noting down the worries and giving them space to have a voice, but making sure they are contained- reinforcing that you have control. Once you have noted them, ask yourself whether there is anything you can do about them, or ask God whether there’s anything he wants to say about it specifically. 

Our bodies carry the ability to release chemicals that will calm us down and increase our sense of wellbeing and there are a number of ways you can encourage your body to produce them. Try a new creative skill or complete a task, listen to music or spend time in the sun. Moving your body and getting good sleep will help contribute to natural chemical stimulation, all of which will help reduce the sense of anxiety held in your body. 

Mercy’s Freedom course has a number of resources that can help assist you in noticing what is taking place within you, and what thoughts and beliefs may be triggering your anxiety, if you feel that you would like to explore further. 

If you are aware that anxiety is overwhelming you or has become something that is having a big impact on your daily life, we recommend that you take time and space to care for yourself by finding a professional to speak with further. The ACC (Association of Christian Counsellors) or BACP (British Association for Counselling and Psychotherapy)/ NCPS (National Counselling and Psychotherapy Society) have databases where you will be able to find someone to speak to based on your personal requirements. More information is available on each of their websites

We have a tool for demystifying christian mental health.

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What is the Discipleship Confidence Matrix Tool?

Within the church there are all kinds of responses to the word ‘discipleship’.

For some, it is an exciting term that conjures up adventure or an invitation on a journey. For others, it’s a term implying togetherness - of practical lessons learned. It may be something we feel we went through ‘back in the day’ or after a recent conversion experience. For some, it’s an uncomfortable term- a reminder of how we ‘should’ be living, or a standard expected of us. 

At Mercy, we have developed the Discipleship Confidence Matrix as a way of intentionally considering the practices that Jesus gave his followers to live by. These practices benefit not only us, but automatically benefit those around us. 

When we’re living healthily- as Jesus shows us through his example on earth-we’re more in touch with who God says we are- who he created us to be- and with those around us. It’s also in this place that we’re able to be fully ourselves- authentically ‘us’ without any airs or graces. 

With that in mind, the confidence matrix covers the following areas… and, as you read, consider you own response to each area, NOT as a ‘must do better’ but as a ‘if I confidently lived out this area, how different might my life look?’ and ‘what areas would I like some support to grow in?’

recognising the voice of God. 

If God is indeed relational, then it stands to reason that his interactions with us are going to be unique and personal. Do we feel able to recognise how God personally interacts with us? Do we notice anything getting in the way? What are our expectations in this area? (could write loads on this)

If we are in relationship- with the creator of the universe, no less- then there exists the possibility for relational connection, not just co-existing together. The Bible tells us He speaks to us and we can speak to him, so if it’s 2-way, an aspect of discipleship looks like understanding how this uniquely works for you. 

If we were able to confident in this area, imagine the difference this could make to the direction of our lives and the comfort and experience of the presence of God. 


recognising and replacing my beliefs and behaviours. 

This area requires us to consider our level of self-awareness. Do we really know who we are and how we exist in the world? Am I aware of the belief systems I hold and how I interact? Often as Christians, we can use our ‘born again’ status to ignore or bury our old beliefs and start trying to believe new beliefs…but that’s simply not how it works. Because we then end up with a list of what we should believe, living alongside a subconscious list of what we in fact do believe, that are entirely at odds with each other. Discipleship in this area looks like understanding who we are and exploring God’s perspective before we healthily start to dismantle old ways, where there is congruence between what we believe and what we do, without shame or judgement.

Forgiveness

Jesus’ emphasis on forgiveness is fascinating. Why would he place such emphasis on it unless he knew it was something we would need often! But the teaching is so often misunderstood.

Do we have clarity on what forgiveness is and what forgiveness isn’t? (loads on this too)

How often we can use our forgiveness to suppress and bury our pain, rather than using it as a way of healthily expressing our pain and partnering with God, inviting him in to gently unburden us of the pain that has been caused. 

To confidently forgive is significant. Whether that’s forgiving others, yourself, or even God! To fully understand the depths (and completeness) of God’s forgiveness for us will surely impact this. 

Emotional comfort and healing

Aside from what we know of God and how he comforts his people, it can be a whole other world to actually be familiar with feeling his closeness and connection.  Again, we believe God is a relational God who wants to relate to his people, so do we know what it feels like to have a felt sense of closeness and comfort with God?

The significance of this area cannot be underestimated. When we tell others about how great it is to belong to God, does our experience of him actually match up to what we’re saying? If we can sit and allow ourselves to be authentically real in answering this question, from there we can begin to explore our own life experiences of comfort and connection and barriers that may prevent that experience. 

Authority as a believer

There are two components to authority; the right to rule, and the power to rule.  Authority can often be misunderstood as control, and too many times, the biblical example of Godly authority has been misrepresented.  When Jesus died on the cross as Son of Man, he reclaimed the right of our authority on this earth which was given to humanity but lost through Adam and Eve. When he rose again as Son of God, he also empowered us by sending the Holy Spirit to us. The Bible teaches that we are co-heirs with Jesus which means, in partnership with Him and surrendered to His will, we can walk in the same authority that He died to re-establish for us and live empowered by the Holy Spirit. 

Our privilege as Believers is to walk in this authority and bring realignment in the areas of our lives to His perfect will. As we experience healing and growth in our relationship with God, self and others, we learn how to protect those breakthroughs by applying a sense of, and understanding of authority in our prayer life, our thought-life and in our choices.

Boundaries

Serving others is at the core of faith in Jesus. We follow the servant-king, and we seek to wash feet just as he did. But somewhere along the way, the interpretation of the important teaching of servanthood can actually work against us and the freedom Jesus promised us if driven by other factors. 

The starting point for this is knowing where we end, and others begin. If we can understand that we can avoid burnout, avoidable stress, and can avoid unhealthy relationships. As Jesus modelled taking time for himself and times of refreshing, can we confidently follow him to do the same? What factors may push us into an un-boundaried life? How can setting boundaries increase our ability to follow Jesus’s example in loving and serving others healthily?

Needs and Desires

How are our needs and desires relevant to discipleship? Well, expressing our needs is a key element of relationship, both with God and with each other. Knowing how we were made, what we love and what we desire is fundamental to human and spiritual living!  

In order for us to fully understand and embrace the biblical concepts of God being our Father who provides, meeting all our needs according to the riches in Christ, and giving us the desires of our heart, how familiar are we with our own needs? How confident are we expressing those needs to others without feeling like a burden? What does the idea of God satisfying our desires reflect of his fatherly goodness?

Discipleship enables us to be healthy and well, to model what Jesus did to stay healthy. Jesus knew who he was, he knew what we needed, he knew how to steward his power and he felt- not just knew but felt- God’s closeness. Ultimately, what does that look like for us in our world? What do you think?

We would love for you to access the tool for yourself and hear your own thoughts and what the impact of living these principles could be - for ourselves and for those around us. 

Access the Discipleship Confidence Matrix Tool Here

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